Slipping Through Space
Here I am!
Embrace the moment now while I am here, I have a feeling I may disappear again shortly. It goes like this: I moved, I lived out of a suitcase for two weeks, I relocated, then sat--where I still remain now--in a temporary apartment in beautiful Ft. Greene, Brooklyn with a new iMac that has outsmarted me in the password department. I'm locked out!
For the next few sentences or paragraphs I intend to ramble in a tone that is hopefully not too incoherent about the movies I've seen in the past month-and-a-half and the soul draining sadness I feel from the consistent lack of them in that time frame. I am at the point where I'm writing post-it notes to myself, "Watch a movie!" lest I forget. My eyes are lazy. They're atrophied. Do you know this feeling, when you're used to looking and watching, having that clanking bell of emotions reverberate inside yourself from seeing such things? It's some life-validating source of curiosity that is suddenly pulled away from you, leaving your eyes to rest lazily upon the landscape with no newness.
I haven't consistently seen in so long it is like a cataract dulling my line of sight. The eyes dull to cinema when you don't watch. You've got to keep up! It's like practicing a sport. If you live by consistency and dedication, your athletic prowess improves. And so it is with the movies: the more you watch the more you see.
Alas! I have been sleepwalking for weeks.
As my daily life begins to settle a few films have trickled in. For instance, Paranormal Activity at the Brooklyn Pavilion last night. I did a jig inside my head I was so giddy to be back at the theater, but then the movie started and I was unplugged from that amp. How long would this alternating structure of daytime-nighttime documentation continue? The sun rises and the feigned bickering of an impossibly wealthy 20-something couple fills the gritty video space with a weight as light as freshly sifted flour. The night sets in--usually around 3:15 a.m., to be exact--and the creep show starts. I'm a wimp who likes to be scared by spectacles like this, so my heart had a few starts (the footprints through the powder! the door slam!), but in all, what a snooze.
So, after my hiatus, I'll have to work my way up to better pictures.
Tonight I made it to the end of my old stand-by, My Man Godfrey (1936). I keep a handful of DVDs unpacked in a stack of urgent belonging that I need at my ready. There's my William Wordsworth anthology, the third edition of the American Heritage, a thesaurus, Marlene Dietrich's ABC, Singin' in the Rain, The Godfather, Clueless, and My Man. Also, notebooks and pens. In an apartment that's still decorated in brown corrugate, these are happy bits of equipage. I put on My Man every other night or so for 15 or 20 minutes while I sit upright in a blue ladder-back chair eating my dinner from a large serving plate (new dishes have not been purchased yet), so it takes a while to get through a full movie. Besides, I really only need a few minutes of comfortable distraction.
Tonight I finished it though, and decided again that Carole Lombard is my favorite actress of all-time, just behind Barbara Stanwyck. My Man Godfrey is a perfect Hollywood narrative. No surprises. You know where the story is headed. Carole Lombard plays an airhead we can love, and William Powell speaks with a cadence that makes you think the words are just dancing off his lips.
Sweet dreams for tonight. I hope to see Good Hair tomorrow! Or maybe Capitalism: A Love Story. Or Antichrist. Or...








